About us and why we do what we do…

I support my wife, Amoda Maa, in the teaching she offers. I do whatever I can to facilitate the spread of her message. Sometimes that means I am behind the camera, sometimes I am playing music. And sometimes I share the platform with her and participate in the inquiry, offering insight and wisdom gathered over years of a slow awakening journey.
Mostly I do all the above.

To understand what happens at our events, retreats and weekends, go to Amoda’s website here.

I am not an appendage to Amoda’s teaching. I am a deeply integral part of it.

The fact that I play a supporting role as a man might confuse some people. They are used to seeing the man being the alpha, the leader, the guru. And if there is a woman she is usually the supporter, rarely is she as awakened as him. In fact in some traditions she is excluded from the enlightenment game, it is purely a masculine thing.

So I want to put some things straight.

Over the years, through grace, persistence and living with Amoda, I have awakened. I don’t make any deal out of it because I’m not that concerned with the label or the projection that goes with this. I prefer to be a poet, musician, mystic and free man. But make no mistake, I feel utterly and totally as awakened as my wife Amoda Maa.

But here is the main point I am going to make.

Even as an awakened man, even as a strong and clear seeing, powerful man in my own right, I choose to defer to her as the teacher and lead voice. I choose to throw my entire being behind her as the main teacher, willingly and consciously, occasionally with difficulty but always with awareness.

WHY?

Because the time is now. Because the time is upon us to herald the new voice that is coming through the women of this world.

Because I believe in my heart of hearts that her voice is more powerful at this time than mine, that it is far more relevant for a woman to be sitting in the seat of the wise one with a strong man by her side than it is for yet another man to be sitting on high.

Her wisdom is palpable, her message is clear.

I feel this choice strongly in my bones. It doesn’t get seen much and maybe people don’t even notice. It doesn’t really matter because I do it anyway. It humbles me, it keeps me real, it keeps me alive and it keeps me part of a bigger evolutionary momentum that I see happening, a momentum that needs conscious support from men who are willing to do whatever it takes.

But I am not an appendage. I’m a vital component of the teaching. Amoda and I are sharing the honesty, the integrity and the authenticity of this relationship. It is a powerful catalyst for others. We have turned roles upside down and nobody has lost anything because we are both awake.

This is love with purpose in the new era.

The salvation of the world is in the uplifting of the woman.
If you do not lift the woman up and if she does not lift herself up - salvation cannot come from anywhere.

The salvation of the world will come through the woman, not through the man.
— Peter Deunov - early 20th century

The Final Door Is Openness

When you have had enough
Of the vicissitudes of life
Come here
When you have been broken
One too many times
And you are exhausted
And ready to let go
Come here
When all your searching
Has led you to a closed door
Come here
When you are beaten, broken
Bombarded and bored
Ready to give up the fight
Come here

That’s what we do here
We sit in the splendor of brokenness
And discover that which is unbroken
We don’t fix you or heal you
We don’t deny you
Or create a faith
We don’t overcome the problem

We open to the whole thing
We open so wide we become the space
Inside which everything happens
We allow the human experience
With all its pain and suffering and grief
And joy and desire and happiness
Nothing is excluded

It is a great relief
To finally let go of the struggle
And be held
And sit with others
And dance, and laugh
And cry
And sit in the silence of it all

Come, come
A thousand times. come.