ABOUT

My life has been a wild ride. From the early years of a dysfunctional family (my mother was admitted to a mental hospital and I had to leave home in my mid-teens), psychedelia and music (I was influenced by Frank Zappa, Pink Floyd, Steely Dan and the Doors), through two decades of hedonism, alcohol abuse and codependent relationships, and into several years of intense shamanic teachings that turned me inside out.

My first teacher was an Irish warrior/poet/mystic by the name of Shivam O'Brien. Through the ruthless truth of his presence, ancient storytelling, ceremonies and blinding magic in the wilderness of Wales, I was torn open and purified in the fire of inner transformation. I stopped drinking and instead immersed myself in the ecstatic poetry of Rumi. It unleashed the poet, the mystic and the musician in me.

And yet, despite all the revelations and authenticity of these profoundly transformational years, love was still missing. Luckily, in 2001 I was introduced to Amoda and started working with her as a musician for her “ecstatic dance and meditation” workshops. And then we embarked on an adventure of living, working and visioning our highest dreams together. From that moment on — even though I didn’t know it at the time — there has been a gradual awakening through the grace of relationship.

At first I had to face my emotional trigger points and a deeply embedded pattern of wanting to escape. But the invitation of true love and Amoda’s unflinching openness and presence kept on melting any resistance.

I also had to go on a journey of profound emotional and physical healing, as I was diagnosed with a serious case of ulcerative colitis around this time. I decided not to medicate but to heal naturally. The journey of healing through illness was a profound and unrelenting “teacher” for ten years. During that time I met every unresolved emotion and addictive thought and finally was able to fully inhabit my body. I also made peace with “God” and connected with the innate intelligence of life.

I have been blessed to have Amoda by my side throughout it all. By being immersed in a field of unconditional love, and by being immersed in supporting her teaching in a practical way, the truth of awakened consciousness dawned in natural way. Today, I am rooted in a natural being-ness that informs my life.

In 2016, we left our home in England and embarked on a new adventure to live in the USA. It has been another wild ride, but one that has been fully embraced and enjoyed. We now live in Santa Fe, New Mexico.